Hey, everyone! Happy Monday!
It was a great weekend! On Saturday, my husband and I went to the gym and had a great workout! I’m just so excited about the progress I’m making with my strength. I’m up to 115 pounds on the deadlift, and I can push 255 pounds on the prowler. I’m carrying 18-pound kettle bells, and I’m using 15-pound weights for bent-over rows. I can hold a side plank for one minute. Ugh, but I still suck at push-ups! Baby steps, I keep telling myself, baby steps. I’ll get there.
On Sunday, my husband and I went for a 5-mile run. I love to run with David because his pace is faster than mine, which pushes me to go faster than I would normally go. Here was our pace:
Mile 1: 11:47, Mile 2: 11:37, Mile 3: 11:41, Mile 4: 11:51, Mile 5: 11:48
For only the second time in my running life, I ran 5 miles under an hour! And I felt really good!
So things are going pretty well fitness-wise; but I’ve been a bit frustrated with the scale, even though I keep saying that the scale doesn’t matter and weight is only a number. Except when that number says I’ve gained 4 pounds over the last several weeks and it just isn’t moving. Even though I say it doesn’t bother me, it really does. And I know it shouldn’t.
I finally reached out to the trainer because although I’m happy with my progress, I’m gaining weight and I still have quite a bit of fat in my stomach area. He asked me to log my food for a few days and send it to him.
God, I really hate logging my food. It’s a pain in the ass; I don’t always remember what I eat and I don’t always know how much I eat because I don’t measure my food.
But the thing I hate the most about logging food is that it really makes you take an honest look at what you’re eating (or in my case, what I’m drinking). So even though I hate logging what I’m eating, it really does give me a reality check.
I found myself not wanting to indulge as much because I knew that I’d have to write it down and my trainer would see it. But I also wanted to be honest about how I eat and if my inability to lose fat is because of my nutrition, then I think it’s important to be honest and not behave a certain way just for a few days while I’m logging food, only to go back to what I was doing before. I’m not going to learn anything if I can’t be open and honest.
So I logged the black bean burger and fries. I logged the 2 pints of beer. I logged the glasses of wine I had. I logged the pizza. The chocolate truffles.
It wasn’t all bad, don’t get me wrong. I eat oatmeal with fruit, lots of veggies, whole grains, and lean protein. But it was eye opening to see how much I let myself indulge, especially during the weekends, so it’s no surprise that I still struggle with my weight, despite how much I’m working out.
I’m reluctant and a bit embarrassed to share the food log, but I’ll do it. I’d be lying if I wasn’t tempted to just forget the whole thing and pretend like my trainer and I didn’t have the discussion. But that’s just cheating ME. I’m committed to being healthy; I want to continue to raise the bar and improve and I think that being honest with myself and others about how I’m eating is part of that commitment, no matter how many mistakes I make along the way.
I’m not perfect. I don’t expect perfection. But I can do better.