I’ve always been a goal setter.
I’ve always told myself that I can do better.
I’ve always felt like everything I do should have meaning and make an impact.
I’ve always felt like I need to do more; nothing I do is good enough. I always feel the need to level up. When I ran my first 5k, I immediately set my sights on a half-marathon, and after that, a marathon. At one point, I even thought about doing a 50-mile race. When I started strength-training, I couldn’t just stick with a slow and steady increase of weights. Instead, every week I pushed myself harder until I suffered a neck injury.
At work, I always felt like I needed to be a stand-out and felt disappointed with myself when I wasn’t. I always felt like my work should somehow “change the world” and with each job I’ve had in the past, I’ve been dissatisfied because I felt the need to do more.
Even when it comes to reading books, I set a goal every year for the number of books I’m going to read and then I get completely caught up in needing to reach that certain number of books.
Sigh. I really need to chill the f*** out.
So instead of trying to figure out what MORE I can be doing, I’m trying to savor what I’ve already done and just trying to live in the moment and not make things more than what they need to be. I’m trying to practice a new mantra: “It’s good enough for me.”
My diet is good enough.
My workouts are good enough.
My work is good enough.
My body is good enough.
My life is good enough.
This is all about self-acceptance and self-love. This is all about gratitude and instead of chasing what I don’t have or what I haven’t achieved, it’s about loving what I have and appreciating the things I’ve already accomplished.
Life is just too damn short. (Even more so now that I’m 51 years old) And I’ve done some pretty incredible things in my life. Why do I think I need more when I already have so much? Why do I need to do more when I’ve already done so much?
“A meaningful life is not being rich, being popular, or being perfect. It’s about being real, being humble, being able to share ourselves and touch the lives of others.” – Unknown