Sometimes in life, we come to a crossroads and have to decide: do I stay on the path that I’m on, or do I take a new road, one less traveled and a bit scary and unsure?
For many years, I had been on a path that was causing me a lot of pain and anguish. I felt unloved, insecure, bitter and often quite angry. But slowly I started to veer off of that path; I built a life for myself filled with family and friends who showed me that I was worthy of love and that I deserved to have the best life possible.
Eventually, I felt like I was at a point in my life when I decided I needed to leave my past, let it go, and turn on a new road. It was the best decision that I ever made. I finally felt at peace. I finally felt like I could love myself for who I am. I felt strong and healthy, both physically and emotionally. It wasn’t an easy road to take, though. It started out rocky. I felt a lot of guilt and self-doubt. I worried if I was doing the right thing, if I was being selfish. I wondered if people who found out would think I was a terrible person. But with time and support from those who loved me and knew me best, I was able to move on and eventually, I stopped looking back. I moved on with my life.
We can’t completely escape our past, though, can we? Sometimes things come back and haunt us and remind us of how things were, who we used to be. Sometimes I find myself looking back and wondering what would happen if I go back? Will things be better? Maybe things weren’t as bad as I thought. I was probably just being dramatic, right?
And before I know it, I feel myself being sucked back into that guilty, emotionally manipulating vortex. It’s really frightening how easy it is to get sucked back in. Luckily for me, I have people in my life who are able to get a hold of me and pull me back. When that happens, I feel such a sense of relief and gratitude. Whew, I say to myself. That was close.
If you have been able to leave a troubled past, remove toxic people from your life, and have built a healthy life for yourself – congratulations! You are worthy and deserve all of the love and happiness you are giving yourself. Don’t look back.
And I am worthy as well. And I’m not looking back.
May your glass always be full,