Wow, you guys, I was in a serious funk this week. Not really depressed or unhappy, just having some really deep thoughts and having some serious life questions going through my head.
Why am I here on this Earth? What is my life’s purpose? Can I be doing more with my life? Am I living to my full potential?
This is the kind of shit that keeps me awake at night. What in the world is going on with me?
First of all, I’m 53 years old and the years just seem to go by more and more quickly the older I get. I’m almost feeling a bit of a panic. I don’t have that much time left.
I know, that sounds really melodramatic, doesn’t it? But seriously, it’s how I was feeling this week. Like, oh God, I have to do something epic before my time is up! But what exactly is this epic thing that I need to do?? Should I start a new career? Should I go back to school? Should I do more volunteer work? Do I just need to make new goals?
What is my life purpose?
So just like any other time when I need to figure out something, I posted about it on Facebook. I got so many comments from friends and family, giving me great little pieces of wisdom. I also heard a lot of, “I’m going through this, too.”
I think it’s completely normal to feel this way. Actually, I think it’s a good thing to feel this way because it means I’m continuing to grow and evolve as a person. Some self-evaluation every now and then is necessary in order for me to continue developing as a person. Believe me, I’ve been doing a lot of self-evaluation this week. I just have to remind myself regularly what a good person I am, what meaningful things I do in my every day life. What I do as a person is important. It’s crazy how I can forget that.
I feel like I’m at another crossroads in my life. I’ve let the universe know that I’m open to new possibilities and opportunities and I’m pretty fricking excited to see what I’ll be doing in this next phase of my life! What it will be, I have no idea, and it’s scary, but it’s so exciting, too! It may not happen for months, but whenever it happens, I’ll be ready.